I can fly again,,,and higher

This heart ever got hurt
And even broke into pieces
And at that time
I can only sit between the pieces
I looked at one by one
With bowed head
With a teardrop
pain
painful
smarting
At that time, I was only able to collect the pieces
Without being able to rearrange again
The more painful sense of time want to shout
But just stuck in my heart,,,
Oh God,,,,
Is this the taste of heart pain
Very deep
really hurt
I can't believe, this happened to me
I never imagined this all before
The wound was so deep
I can't believe I'm having the worst time at that time
Am I able to stand
Am I able to rearrange the pieces
Oh God
I can't understand what happened to me at that time
love,
My love hurt me
Love made ​​me become so weak
At that time Love as though has destroyed my world
At that time
Yes,,, only at that time
I didn't think that I would be able to
I think I was really going to die
I just wanted to take a dagger or go to the brink
Really just death that I want that time
God,,, God oh God
I don't want anything
I want You take my soul
I want You take my life
I had no hope
I am weak and helpless
Love oh my love at that time
I really never expected
It ever been part  the story of my life
If at that time I didn't think about the night
about morning time
about rain
and about hope
May now I was buried
Died for love
Yes,,, night,,, night not always dark
The morning will always replace the dark night
Rain will immediately go and rainbow will come
All will change
There is hope in the future
If I don't expect this to happen
I also have the hope to be able to smash all of these
I have God
And I believe this is his plan
The storm will soon be gone
And really it's all true
Take a long breath, with closed eyes
I was able to convince
It's just a story that will adorn my life
Do not let it continue to be a long story
Stop
Pick up the pieces and rearrange again
Wipe tears and smile
Trying to feel I became more stronger
I feel my life more nuanced
Yes,,,,, don't die
Don't ever think about it
Go to the edge of abyss
Just to shout
Shout,,,, "I can,,,,,"
Look at the sky
There were birds flying freely in the sky
Feel liberty of them
Feel flap their wings
That could bring it to fly higher
Among blistering and storm
Yes,,, and please look at me,,, my love
Love which was almost killed me
I'm still here
I can smile again
My heart which in pieces
Now has been re-arranged with a beautifully
I was able to go through the hard times
And I could go back to my life
Which ever I waste it because of you oh my love
Now look at me my love
You almost killed me,,, my love
But I didn't die because of you
The only hope now
Hopefully this doesn't happen to you
Because I'm not sure you are able survive like me
Thank you for leaving me
Thanks for all the sense which ever you give it to me
Thank you for making me became stronger
Thanks because of your love I have a story for today
Thank God
My love has made a valuable lesson for me
Thank for create my love story
Now I want like the birds in the sky
Flying high and never look back again

Kutowinangun, January 19, 2014 19:30 PM

it takes time to find true love

Good night world, goodnight friend hope and prayer that all of you are always in the arms of God, always blessed and always given path of light.
Tonight, just wanted to say a little about the 'LOVE',,,,, 

Love,,, actually what,,, what love is, here's my version of love
Love can not be expressed with words, can only be felt. Love can make someone strong to be very weak, and could make the weak becoming filled with strength. Love is sometimes painful but also can make us feel very happy.

In love there smiles, tears and sacrifice. Always colored with squabbling, debate and jealousy, but that's love.
Whatever love is a positive, natural flavors and can not be avoided. Love does not have to have, but a love that can grow when we feel a sense of a sincere love. Love can grow when we understand that a person has gracious accept our shortcomings. Maybe we can't reciprocate one's love on that time, but from the way we treated us, so sincere and selfless,,,, through way he loves us not with mere words can make us learn to accept his love.

You can say sorry a million times, Say “I love you” as much as you want, say whatever you want, whenever you want. But if you’re not going to prove that the things you say are true, then don’t say anything at all. Because if you can’t show it. Your words…don’t mean a thing.
Someone says love hurts, but that isn’t true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that doesn't hurt.
Nothing is nicer than having someone who appreciates you in the smallest things,,accepts you in time of hardships, comforts you when you're troubled loves you no matter what and is simply happy for having you in their life.

At the last let someone love you just the way you are – as flawed as you might be, as unattractive as you sometimes feel, and has accomplished as you think you are. To believe that you must hide all the parts of you that are broken, out of fear that someone else is incapable of loving what is less than perfect, just believe that sunlight is incapable of entering a broken window and illuminating a dark room.

It seems it just a little meaning of love from me, I believe you have a different opinion, and whatever it is with pleasure I would appreciate your opinions.

Love makes us learn new lessons each day,
Love makes us follow our own way,
Love makes us feel good all the time,
Like sweet melodies of the wind chime,
Love is a great feeling,
Love is world’s best thing!
Love sets everything apart,
Love binds two hearts,
Love sees no bridge but find its way,
Love is an expression, without any say,
Love is pure a feeling so true,
Love makes you feel everything new!

  Kutowinangun, January 11, 2014 23:30 PM

always believed,,,storm definitely passed

I have had a lot of storms in my life
and I know You have been there with me
but I feel like I have been knocked down so many times
that this time it’s so hard to get back up
and as I have taken time to catch my breath
I have lost my momentum
I don’t think I can keep going
My God,
please grant me the courage and strength
to get my life back in control
hold my hand and lead my way
God
I don't ask you to make my life easier
but I ask you to give me the strength 

to face all my trouble
I'm never worry
I know You not blind to my tears
never deaf to my prayers
and never silent to my pain
You sees and hears and You will deliver
God
please open the eyes of my heart
to see the wonderful things
You have planed for me
I know all my dreams can't come true
but if You are with me for the rest of my life
I will live a beautiful dream every single day of my life
I may not end up where I always wanted to
but if I am in Your arms I have my world with me
I may not have everything
I always wanted in life
but I have You
and that is all I would ever need to be happy
God I love how You love me
I am surrounded by the beauty of You in everything I see
I feel comfort and peace when I am alone with You
But God
sometimes the chaos from the world around me
disrupts my soul and I feel lost and alone
God please help me to return to that place of Your protection
once again

Kutowinangun, January 05, 2014 19:50 PM

maybe there is hope maybe not

there is little hope
maybe
there is little light
maybe
there I will be back up
maybe
or maybe otherwise
maybe

your love come give me so much hope
your love come to illuminate my life
your love come for make me rise

but may no longer now
maybe all have changed
You are making me become more meaningful
but also that you have made me hopeless now

Love has turned into something painful
love that have convinced me about the beauty of life
has now opened the eyes of my heart
that it is not always
maybe only sometimes
and not completely
beautiful only in the beginning
but painful in the end
even so
I have never regretted
storm definitely passed
and all back better
only one me hopes
your love has made me life
Don't kill me with your love

 I will hiding my feelings of pain behind my smile
For your happiness...
I moved away from you
I stop talking with you
I don't even disturb you
But sorry i cant stop myself loving you...
And I still do always think about you

although you never understand about that feelings  

Kutowinangun, January 03, 2014 16:35 PM